Male Quarters

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: A young man sat in one of the chairs holding a black notebook as he was lightly jotting down things which were even slightly unknown to him it felt. He wore black dress bottoms and a matching top with a slight collar folded downward. His skin fair with soft brown eyes and short matching hair which looked to be layered. The male sighed as if in defeat as he stopped jotting and looked to the ground I have no purpose... why am I alive... I don't want to be... At the last thought the book in his lap fell to the floor and opened to a page which dated back years ago:
October 31st 1514,
  Finally the day i have been awaiting my entire life; she looks so beautiful in that white dress. I can't even believe I am wearing a suit. I want this moment to last forever. It has been 20 years knowing her. and out of my 150 years of life; i couldn't be happier to spend it with her forever."
April 27th 1564
  I am at fault. I am a monster. I only live for one thing and that is to harm others. It's been 50 years since the wedding that ended in her death and all because of my lack of self control... I didn't even know she was carrying two children. I don't want to live... I hate who I am; what I am. If their is such a place as hell; take me...FUCKING TAKE ME!
The man picked it up and flipped through the pages and passed a few entries which were pages soaked in dried blood. He closed the notebook and put the pen in a small strap on it and leaned over holding his head covering his face, "Why am I still alive..."

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth came in, rubbing tired eyes with one hand, dragging his favorite blanket with him. The child, small for his age, was only around five, but looked maybe three. He'd been born early and as some Lycan's called him, he was the runt. His freckled cheeks were stained with the salt of dried tears as he looked about the room.

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: Caught up in his thoughts he hadn't noticed the child entering the room. His sences were blocking out everything in reality and he was lost in his own mind and thoughts which were tearing him apart. He wouldn't last long though it never did; it always ended in violence or sadness. Finally opening his light brown eyes he stared at the floor senses slowly opening and his head lifted to see the young child. He saw that his eyes were lightly crusted and could smell the scent of salt and knew it was tears. He had to hold his own at the thought of his unborn which never even had a chance.

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: The child gave a loud sniffle, though it was unheard by him. He looked until he saw the man who looked more sad then little Kenneth felt. He popped a thumb into his mouth and walked over to him. He stared into the man's brown eyes with his own grey-green. It was a startling sort of eye color. A light grey was around the pupil, branching out like a star-burst, the rest was filled with a deep emerald green. He stood like that for a moment before placing the blanket into the man's lap and giving him a soft, reassuring pat with the now empty hand.

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: The male watched the child come closer seeing him sucking his thumb which was a terrible habit but he wouldn't complain it wasn't his own. He lightly froze up when he saw the boys eyes which had lightly startled him then again he hadn't expected the child to come near him anyways. Shen he saw the blanket be placed in his lap he sighed softly and gently reached down pulling the child into his arms and lightly rocked him. Somehow holding him kept him feeling as though it wasn't over yet. As if this child was a sign telling him 'Not your time yet'. He put the book aside as well as the pen and looked to the child as he rocked him. His face still rather blank showing no signs of emotion however he was beginning to think much harder now. Kat.. what would you have me do.. I do not know why I continue but I did because I believe it is what you would want... yet the pain is killing me. at my age I should be full of life and yet I feel I am dying all the same... He knew he may be speaking on deaf ears but spoke only to let his voice work once more after so many years of silence, "I'm alone too... my name is Crush."

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: He lay his head on Crush's shoulder, looking to the man's lips when he felt a slight reverbaration in his chest. The boy stopped sucking his thumb and wrote his name slowly in the air, as if there were paper there... His 'n's and the 'k' were backwards, but it was easy enough to translate into 'Kenneth'. He looked at Crush to make sure the make got it, then gave him another gentle pat, this time on his cheek. The motion said it all without words, 'Its ok, I'm here now'. The child then rested his head once more, looking at the notebook, or what he could see of it.

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: Crush watched the child as he waved his finger in the air and he nods lightly, "Kenneth." He looked to the child watching hard as if reading him though those odd eyes of his. He was usually able to read others of course by their eyes and actions. The child had made it more easy on him. He shuddered feeling the soft pat of his hand on his cheek and sighed softly rocking the child, "Perhaps.. you are here but at times I don't want too..." He saw the eyes of the babe look to the notebook which was closed, "A diary. It's habit. I had it since I was a boy and it has kept me somewhat sane this long."

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth nodded a little once he was done talking. He adjusted a little and leaned over to the diary. But he didn't take it up in his hand, didn't even touch it. Kenneth didn't really need to, he could tell some of what was in there because it'd been in Crush's mind when he first came out. When the boy was tired, everyone's thoughts just flooded him, well, so long as they were in the same room.

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: Crush watched the boy reach for the book. He knew it would do not too much harm so he brought it over and let him hold it. He looked down to the diary which felt more like a binding curse. He couldn't stop writing in it. His wife Kat loved diary's and journals. She wrote everything in it everyday; even the list of items she got in the grocery. Crush felt obligated to follow out seeing as she no longer did. He hardly ever wrote in his own till he met her, "Many sad things happened in this book... very little good things. But at least I know the next time I can write about you and make it just a wee less more sad." No smile no change in his bland facial expression just calm and tired voice.

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth looked up at him, nodded a little as he held the diary. Then he shook his head a little, patting it before looking at him, patting his chest and nodding.He used his fingers to indicate tears and then patted his chest again. The sad things didn't happen to the book, they'd happened to Crush himself.

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: Crush watched and nodded lightly, "Yes. to me." He sighed softly, "Yet the pain doesn't go away even when you write of it. It just puts it away. Locks it until I open it and read it again to remember the life I wish I didn't have." He sighed heavily as he gripped his chest at a sharp pain inside him as he was not able to sheed his tears but the pain did come.

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth frowned a little and put his arms around Crush's neck and hugged him, nuzzling into his shoulder a little.

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: Crush shuddered when he was hugged by the boy. He hadn't had many embrace him and feeling it he wasn't sure what to do. He sighed softly and hugged the child back rubbing his back as if to comfort the child when in truth he was the one needing comfort. But oddly enough somehow by aiding the child he was slowly forgetting his own ordeals.

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth just kept holding him, or rather being held by Crush. He hid a yawn and curled closer into the man. It wasn't often that Kenneth went to someone to be held, only when he thought he could help them.

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: Crush rubbed the boys back gently and closed his eyes feeling tired suddenly. He continued rubbing the child but in the chair he was relaxed back in it and nodding off lightly. He breathed softly as his hands rubbed the childs back as he began to dream.

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth waited until the man had nodded off before he closed his eyes and allowed himself some shut eye.

2011-08-03 [Sicarius]: ((My apologies for intruding, but this whole thing made me go 'Awwww!'))

2011-08-03 [Yudan333]: [If you would like sica you can join in! ^^ bring in a male character? just offering. everyone is welcome to join here ^^]
Crush felt his dream take him to a place he hadn't even hoped to see. His wife giving birth and having two boys. One child was small and rather scrawny but his face was hidden by the bonnet. Crush took the boy from his wife with a soft smile as he removed the bonnet to see the young boy with striking green eyes with starburts of grey. Suddenly Crush woke with a start. His heart facing and breath unsteady. He rubs his head as he still had the sleeping boy in his arms. He sighed softly and looked to the child and clenched his teeth as tears formed in his brown eyes and streaked down his face.

2011-08-03 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth shifted a little when Crush awoke. He yawned in his sleep and his hand formed a little fist, clutching onto the man's shirt, his other hand moving to create a pillow with his arm.

2011-08-04 [Yudan333]: Crush couldn't hold back the tears which streaked his face and began to fall on his shirt. He pulled his head back so as not to wake the child by the bombs of liquid. He calmed his emotions and blocked them all back once again; pushing the pain back into a box in his heart to lock it and open it long from now. He wiped his tears and his light brown eyes watched the child sleep and he put the recliner out and laid back and now supported him better lightly rocking him.

2011-08-04 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth slept still, trying to curl up into him closer as his dreams shifted from something peaceful to monsters attacking him and everyone there.

2011-08-04 [Yudan333]: Crush watched the child sleep but seeing the boy wince as though from a terrible nightmare he lightly paniced himself. He was at a loss when it came to children and he surely was no father figure. He didn't want to wake the child in fear it may stun him but to let him proceed in a nightmare would only worsen his waking. Crush began to look around as though to find a solution. The only thing near him was his diary of sorry. He bit his lip knowing reading it would surely make it an even worse nightmare. He felt his heart begin to race once more and he looked to the child then finally began to speak. More so to himself but all the same he had a soft voice in which his wife referred to as 'calm and collect'. He hoped she was with him and right. "Diary, 2030 late night. I was writing not long ago of how miserable I was.. how tired of life and living was. How I felt I had no purpose to live without my wife which died years ago. The woman who I had put all my hope into along with two children unborn. But today change when I put my notebook down. A child walked into my life. I didn't know it then but I realized in some way that he was my son." He smiled sadly softly speaking, "That Kennith was my son coming to me after a bad day of playing in the park and had come to me to seek refuge. And now I see that I am glad to take him into my arms and help him; to raise him as I would my wifes children. I see now Kat... you kept me here this long to make me find help but also offer it..."

2011-08-04 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth could feel the reverbaration of Crush's voice near his ear. He shifted his head a little until his little ear was pressed against Crush's neck..It was as close as he would ever get to hearing with his ears. The boy sighed a little and relaxed again. Whatever had been haunting his dreams now gone.

2011-08-04 [Yudan333]: Crush held the child close in his arms and closed his eyes tightly, "I swear I will protect you. I will not let harm find you. I refuse to loose you again. I would suffer eternity to live and see you live and grow. I refuse to believe in fate.. I shall make my own path and destiny. I will raise you as if you were my own son Kennith. And I will NOT fail you."

2011-08-04 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth slept peacefully in his arms, his thumb naturally finding his mouth as he absentmindedly sucked on it. He'd never fallen asleep in someone's arms before, not even as a little baby.

2011-08-04 [Yudan333]: Crush allowed the young boy to sleep in his arms; he hadn't ever thought of holding a child other than his own blood but now doing so it was as if he felt bound to this child which rest so innocently in his arms. He had a feeling danger awaited them but Crush was willing to face anything for his new friend, and child; Kenneth.

2011-08-04 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth's little body tensed again. He whimpered and sat up quickly, staring at Crush, fear in his eyes. Not of the man holding him, but of something that had started him out of his good dream and back into reality.

2011-08-04 [Yudan333]: He gently held him as he saw him jerk up. He shook his head and brushed his hair gently and continued to rock him and gave a small assuring smile which would be rare to see from this man. "It's alright... I am here this time." He pats the childs cheek and rocked him gently.

2011-08-04 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth frowned a little, wishing he could talk, tell Crush what he'd seen... He was afraid it would actually come true if he didn't find someone that could understand him through his mind, the way he could sometimes hear other's thoughts. He sighed a little and lay back down a little into his arms.

2011-08-04 [Yudan333]: Crush looked to him and saw how needy he was and how he wished to show or tell what he had dreampt. Crush looked over and grabbed a pad of paper that wasn't his diary and offered it to him, "You can draw it... or write it?" He offered the pencil and the booklet of paper.

2011-08-04 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth sat up and took the pencil and papers, then leaned over the side of the chair,using the side table for stability. For such a young child, he could draw almost masterfully, definitely better then he could write. The picture was of a monster-a creepy looking bug like thing with pincher and stingers. the creature was in the midst of eating Kenneth..

2011-08-06 [Yudan333]: Crush sat in wait as he saw the child take the items he had given him and allowed him to reposition himself over the arm chair of the leather loveseat which he had now reclined less to let the child draw. He watched a picture began to form and he shuddered a bit at the realism of it as well as how rather graphic it was. He sighed and brushed his hand over his head and kissed it gently and whispers, "I will keep you safe." He looked to the drawing.

2011-08-06 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth's bottom lip pouted out a little. He was obviously scared, but there was also almost... An acceptance of the creature and the fate he saw for himself. His problem was, that every time he met someone new, they met the same fate. There was a part of the child that was convinced that he was the cause of this...

2011-08-06 [Yudan333]: Crush watched the childs facial features twist and he shook his head taking the pad and paper and began to do a small scribble himself. He did a more cartoonist looking doodle and had his own character punching at the back of the creatures head and at the bottom right a box as if it were a comic and drew him holding Kennith and rubbing cheeks. However both their eyes were as such '^^'

2011-08-06 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth smiled a little, it would have been a giggle, but he rarely made noise. He hugged Crush around the neck after he finished the doodle and yawned a little, looking to the windows.

2011-08-06 [Yudan333]: Crush watched the child yawn then gently patted his head, "How about we both sleep. I am rather exhausted myself. I will come with you unless you would like to come with me." He was trying to ask him which room he would rather like to go to. He figured the childs room due to the child would feel more comfortable in his own surroundings.

2011-08-06 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth frowned a little and thought of his room... he was afraid Crush would be too tall to fit into the belly of the ship where the beds were... He tried to explain so with his hands.

2011-08-10 [Yudan333]: His brown eyes looked over the boy and he stopped his hand and gently shook his head, "It's alright.." He carried the young man taking his journal as well as the young boys blanket in which he had brought to the room with him. "We shall go to my room." Crush's Castle Room

2012-04-23 [GlassCasket]: Cliff walked into the lounge of the male quarters and looked around, "Meh..." He said with a shrug and went back to the castle main hall

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: [XD ROFL That was short lived!!!]

A large brown furred male Gazed out a window as he laid on the couch enjoying the look of night but he was in no mood to be outside simply stay in but reading wasn't something he wanted to do at the moment. His large wolf ears lowered as he blew hot air on the window then saw the white puff from his breath fade. His ears raised and he did so again and put his nose to the window leaving a large muzzle print on the window. He smiled lightly as his gold eyes shot to the side feeling someone enter but didn't speak. The silence made even him uneasy so he decided to anyways, "My name is Strider. Whom may I ask are you?"

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth entered the room and looked at Strider, but didn't really pay him any mind as he kept walking towards the door that would lead out to the rest of the castle. He was hungry, and since he couldn't talk, he didn't know how else to get food then by getting some for himself. If he could reach.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: The large male wolf looked to the child as he walked toward the door as though to leave. He rose up and padded over to the child gazing down from being over 7ft tall. The large fur werewolf lowered to a crouch and raised a brow to the child, "Where is your elder?" He slowly went to take him but knew he probably looked rather scary to a boy so he just looked to the boy carefully as though asking what he wanted.

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth looked at him and his eyes when round at how tall he was, and watched him as he crouched down. He just stared at him for a moment, then tugged on his own ear and shook his head a little.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: He saw the child do a motion and he nods, "I see... hmm." The brute looked to the child and heard his stomach growl. His ears flicked at the grumbling noise and he smiled, "Hungry eh?" He reached out to take the boy as though to take him to the dining but was smacked over the head with a rather large book and pushed back on his ass. He gazed up seeing Crush and held his head lightly, "Easy... I mean no harm; the child was wandering and simply was curious."
Crush narrowed his eyes, "I don't trust you wolf." He picked up Kenneth and turned to go back to the room but stopped hearing the male speak, "My name is Strider. The child is hungry.. stay here and I will go fetch something. And don't call me wolf especially if you are no different; wolf." He turned and left the males quarters. Crush looked down to the child and sighed, 'Why didn't you tell me..'

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth stepped away when Strider was knocked on his ass, looking between the two while they conversed. He clung to Crush when he was picked up and look up at him. He poked out his bottom lip a little when he thought Crush was annoyed, patting his belly lightly.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: Crush shook his head and held the child close kissing his head. He had a new friend but he was taking on a much larger responsibility. He rubbed his head then went to a chair and sat down as he held Kenneth and gazed to him and smiled as he nods as though understanding and placed his nose to him and shook it gently.

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth did his silent giggle then he quickly flung his arms around Crush's neck and cuddled in close to him.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: Crush smiled and kissed his cheek then looked to the door seeing the large wolf enter and hand him a cup of apple sauce and a spoon along with a small pbj sandwich. He sat on the opposite couch and watched the boy, "I presume he is not yours. You seem to be new at this fathering bit." Crush nods and began to feed Kenneth the applesauce, "Yes... i met him yesterday. I didn't want him to be alone."

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth took the spoon from Crush when he decided he wasn't getting it fast enough. He shoveled it into his mouth, somehow not making a mess though. Kenneth didn't eat often because he was always doing a disappearing act on people. Eventually, most gave up trying to find him.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: Crush watched Kenneth and smiled sitting the boy down beside him allowing him to eat on his own and watched him in silence, "My name is crush by the way; sorry about your head."

The large brute shook his head, "Not at all I have been hit by much harder things. I was once an alpha so I naturally stood up for the pack if their were enemies."

2012-04-23 [GlassCasket]: [xD couldn't think of anything to do in here :P]

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: [Mur... I don't think I hit send with my response >.< Damn, and it was a good one I thought...]

Kennet flung the spoon over his shoulder when there wasn't much left in the cup, then used his finger to scrape the sides free of the sauce. When he was satisfied that there was no more applesauce, he set the cup down and started eating the sandwich.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: Strider watched the boy and raised a brow, "Will he be hungry still He acts as though he is starved." He checked his fangs as his tail lightly swayed back and forth at the end of the couch.

Crush shook his head, "No I don't think so. If So I will go get more." He pulled a notepad out and set it on the table in case Kenneth wanted to draw or speak through the paper. He felt the males eyes on him and was a bit nervous. It was rare but on occasion he has been flirted with by other males.

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth finished the pbj and scooted forward to the paper and grabbed the pencil so he could draw.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: Crush smiled and watched the young boy, "A pack... that must be a lot of responsibility... I could never imagine being a leader. I have been a loner most all my life and honestly it's hard enough taking care of myself Now I have a child in which I want to take care of..."

Strider looked to him and relaxed, "Have you thought about getting a woman to help you. They have those naturally you know. It would be much easier if you had a partner." His ears flicked and his bright yellow eyes saw the child draw as he drew in a bit closer to watch.

2012-04-23 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth at least wasn't drawing something as gruesome as what he had the night before. This one was turning out to look rather peaceful.

2012-04-23 [Yudan333]: Crush smiled and patted his head and watched him draw, "It's amazing... he's so talented and smart but yet he cannot speak..." He could only imagine the things he would say; grade A student he would presume.

Strider watched the male almost ignore his comment as though he wasn't interested, "Are you by any chance homosexual?" He saw the shock on the male and smiled a bit, "I am just asking cause you don't seem interested in woman."

"It's not that im NOT interested! It's just.. well I don't know how to talk to a girl. It's hard enough talking to anyone else.." He was turning a soft pink.

He chuckled and smiled, "Hmm considering you speak so well to me. Perhaps it is because I am a wolf as well. Like breeds are able to talk easier to each other. I have smelt a woman in the halls in which perhaps would perhaps suit your fancy and help you with the child. But you would have to learn how to flirt."

2012-04-24 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth glanced at Crush, wondering if he was trying to get his attention. He smiled a little, then went back to drawing. He stood up when he was done and held up the picture for Crush to see. He put it right up to his face, demanding his attention.

2012-04-24 [Yudan333]: Crush looked up to Strider and shook his head, "I think I am quite fine thank you." He looked to Kenneth and nods, "Alright.." He slowly pulled it up to where he could see it and blinked at the drawing, "Hmm..."

Strider moved over behind them and looked over their shoulders, "Well well. Guess the child can draw.."

2012-04-24 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: It was a meadow of wildflowers, trees surrounding it and a mountain peak behind them. There in the field was the Fae he'd met a couple days before. She was int the middle of the field, looking over her shoulder to them. For such a peaceful setting, the Fae looked as though she was running from something; the fear was there on her face.

2012-04-24 [Yudan333]: Crush blinked at the picture and gazed to the beautiful woman in the field. The picture seemed to draw him in, 'who is she... i think i need to save her... i don't even know her..'

Strider looked to Crush and smirked touching his shoulders and rubbed them, "I know that look. I have a feeling you will be looking for her now huh." Maybe your young friend knows how to find her."

Crush looked to Kenneth, "Do you want me to save her?" His eyes went to the picture as he brushed her cheek as though trying to calm her by just touching the picture of her.

2012-04-24 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth went back to the papers and searched through until he found the drawing from the night before, holding it up and tapping it, then the Fae. Whatever the creature was, Kenneth seemed to think it was going to go after the Fae.

2012-04-24 [Yudan333]: Crush looked to the drawing from before and shuddered a bit, "I will have to find her then... and make sure she is safe." He looked to Kenneth, "I know you cant hear me... but read my lips please... Where did you see her?" He looked at him determined.

Strider knew he had lost the male in the conversation and shrugs going to the couch at the window again and sat down gazing out once more at the lovely moon and gazed to the pool outside, "Hmm seems girls are at the pool. Maybe there..."

[what did he draw the first night? I can't remember!XD and i cant seem to go back in the posts. wait i can XD lemme go see]

2012-04-24 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: [Hell, I'm not sure.. I just know it's a scary monster >.< lol]

Kenneth blinked a few times, then pointed outside. He'd met her in the garden a few days ago, but he didn't know where she was now.

2012-04-24 [Yudan333]: Crush had just now registered what Strider had said, "The pool." He took Kenneth in his arms and quickly went to his room to throw on more clothes then was back the male quarters grabbing the paper and writing materials. He nods, "Let's go then shall we." He left heading towards the pool.

Strider shrugged and stayed in the comfortable longue chair watching outside. He opened the window and inhaled the night air and smiled.

[If you don't mind we can go to the] Neuptune Pool

2012-04-24 [Sigyn, The Faithful Wife]: Kenneth waved bye to Strider as they left.